On May 31st, I wrote this on my blog and posted a video for my mother set to the Mindy Gledhill song called "This is my song".
My mom lived for 29 days after I made this video. I watched it with her many times and I would sing the song to her (and just to me). It was like the soundtrack of those last weeks in my head. The lyrics of the song are the words I imagined my mom would sing to me to comfort me.
Here they are again . . .
This is my song
To carry on
When you have found yourself alone
And I am gone
So I will wait
Every last minute that we have
This is my song to remember me by
When the moon grows long in the sky
And you wonder why goodbyes are bound to be
Life goes on, love, you will see
Think of this tune
When Forget-me-nots bloom
Pick one for me and make a wish
That I will be back soon
My mom and I once joked that we didn't even know what forget-me-nots looked like.
But I do now. You see-- I went to the General Relief Society Meeting (which is a large group meeting of the women's organization for my church) and the concluding speaker centered his entire talk around the forget-me-not flower. He had 3 image graphics of the flower and his talk was so very down to earth and so very much just what my mom would say.
To say that I was taken aback would be an understatement. I truly feel like I have been given a sign that God loves me and knows my own individual needs -- that my mom is still watching over me and loves me. It sounds crazy to think that an address intended for millions of women would resonate with me so individually and so deeply and yet it did. I can truly say I was not out "looking" for a sign. In fact at the time I was sitting in my basement, doing some sewing alterations (just like my mom taught me), with my ear buds in my ears and the women's broadcast on my iphone. As his talk began and he referenced several photos in a row of forget-me-nots in bloom, I kept thinking -- really??? just like the song??? And his remarks were like echoes of my mother's words of wisdom.
"There is something inspiring and sublime about the little forget-me-not flower," said President Dieter F. Uchtdorf.
"I hope it will be a symbol of the little things that make your lives joyful and sweet," he said.
President Uchtdorf used the forget-me-not flower, which has five petals, as a metaphor to illustrate five things he would like the women to remember.
"Never forget that you must be patient and compassionate with yourselves, that some sacrifices are better than others, that you need not wait for a golden ticket to be happy. Please never forget that the 'why' of the gospel of Jesus Christ will inspire and uplift you. And never forget that your Heavenly Father knows, loves and cherishes you."
You can watch the address in its entirety here.